The ego is TOTALLY wrong! It is a piece of flotsam and jetsam floating around in your Holy Mind. We come into this world and its voice is what we hear UNTIL we look at it, decide it is wrong and ask for HELP to “see” another way. The ego is not your friend. It tells you to be fearful, mistrust others, be jealous, judge everyone but tries to sound like its loving or lovable. If you are thinking of hurting yourself, those thoughts are from the ego. That’s why it’s not your friend.
We become suspicious of the world and what we think we see! We ask: Is this all there is? And Why? You may have a list of grievances that have accumulated since the first grade, right? Write them down on a piece of paper. That is all they are…..words on a piece of paper. You don’t have to carry them around and worship them OR continue to believe it is true or pay homage to it or build a victim’s altar to it in your mind! It is all from the ego and it is from the past. Our perceptions are false.
You do have an alternative. That alternative is also in your mind and it is called by many names: Holy Spirit, Truth, Grace, Wisdom, Voice of Truth, Intuition, The Answer and others. It came with us along with the ego however; the ego’s voice is loudest in the world. The Quiet Answer is Peace. And it is the solution.
All you need to do is find time out of your busy day to be still. Go within to the quiet center. Close your eyes take some deep breaths and go to the place in your mind where it is still. Thoughts may come but disregard them. Ask for wisdom to see through the eyes of peace. Take one particular problem and say: “I need to see this differently. I want another way to see this.” This can be done even when there is chaos all around you. Like screaming children, sirens, noise from a crowd or city streets. It only takes a minute to access the Peace available in your mind.
Open you mind to the possibility that help IS available. Changing your belief that you are alone and dependent on the ego. You are NOT. Ask for another perspective to come to you. The perspective of Peace!
We tend to see only the past because the ego keeps feeding it to us: Lesson 7. I see only the past. Perhaps some of your grievances are from the past?
Here is the lesson. Just click on the “speaker” and listen. Take it in and it may not seem like it but we do carry the past our mind and it reflects, projects and “colors” the future. Be Free!!
I wasn’t sure I wanted to go! After all it had been ?? years since I’ve seen these people!
I’m glad I went! It was “I” who had judged these people so many years ago…..time to drop all judgments!
It was “I” who decided – I was not “good enough, smart enough, rich enough or equal” to them.
It was “I” who judged each of them – mostly better than I. It was I who separated myself!
I don’t know what they thought about me and I have learned since that it’s none of my business either! I wish I had known that way back then! So here is what to take or let go of – as you go to your reunion! Half of our problem is:
What do they think about me?
The other half is: What do I think about them!
Who Cares??? Reallly???
Decide you will have a wonderful time. It is up to you to decide this before you go because it will set you up for just that! Decide you will have a good experience and it is a worthwhile thing to do and you will enjoy, aka being “in joy”.
Decide you will drop all past judgments you have had about people! You will no longer see the “past” in them but only the Present! Let the past go…..it is gone anyway, no longer here and never to return!
Decide you will not let your past judgments cast any shadow on NOW! Besides your past judgments were probably wrong. Forgive the past, be free of it and have the peace of NOW…..right NOW! You can do this.
Go with an open heart and mind. Relax! Accept how things are NOW and not how they WERE. Love is here right NOW. Acceptance is here right NOW
Go with Faith in yourself and them…. when you see someone you haven’t seen in awhile ask: What have you done since? ……..High school?……College? or been doing…….since I last saw you. Open them up to bring you up to date with their lives.
Go with Trust…….Trust in your Goodness…..Trust in their Goodness. Go with Love……Trust in Truth!
The “Courage Bench” sits at West Point, overlooking the Hudson River!
I don’t know about you but there are several things going on in my life and in our Country’s life that make me worry. I worry about the division that is making people blind these days. Maybe it has always been and always will be BUT I don’t have to buy into it and take sides. But my ego wants to of course.
Choose to “look within” and realize it is a choice to be worried but….this need not be! Since it is a choice I don’t have to choose it…..do I? What part of my mind is choosing? Where is my decision maker? I have a “decider” in my mind that can choose!! A few days ago I caught a thought; actually it was a judgment (condemnation) about a person who was obese. I “noticed” the thought and said “I don’t have to think this or believe this thought – so I don’t choose it.” It was disturbing to think it! I stopped the ego – this need not be!
“When your mood tells you that you have chosen wrongly, and this is so whenever you are not joyous, then know this need not be. ³In every case you have thought wrongly about some brother (maybe yourself even) that God created, and are perceiving images your ego makes in a darkened glass.”(ACIM, T-4.IV.2:2-3)
That was it! I started seeing the beauty in that individual and the fine intelligent mind that out shown the form in every way. The judgment turned to acceptance and then opened to love.
One night I was worried sick about my son who was very late getting home. I finally decided I would put him in “God’s Hands” and let it go. This need not be!! I went to bed. Everything was fine and even if it turned out differently, he was in God’s Hands forever where I had placed him. The truth is WE, you and I are in God’s Hands too! If we are in God’s Hands then what is there to worry about? “
“Search sincerely for what you have done and left undone accordingly, and then change your mind to think with God’s. ⁶This may seem hard to do, but it is much easier than trying to think against it. ⁷Your mind is one with God’s. ⁸Denying this and thinking otherwise has held your ego together, but has literally split your mind.” (ACIM, T-4.IV.2:5-8)
Denying that we are One with God has left us bereft and lonely. When I am worried I am also sad because I made some mistake and wonder what the consequences will be and then that makes me anxious. This is all 1000% ego thoughts!
“When you are sad, know this need not be. ²Depression comes from a sense of being deprived of something you want and do not have. ³Remember: you are deprived of nothing except by your own decisions, and then decide otherwise. When you are anxious, realize that anxiety comes from the capriciousness of the ego, and know this need not be. ²You can be as vigilant against the ego’s dictates as for them.” (ACIM, T-4.IV.3:1–4:2)
And then I feel guilty because of the mistake – The Course tells us that only the ego can experience guilt and I am not my ego and neither are you!
“When you feel guilty, remember that the ego has indeed violated the laws of God, but you have not. ²Leave the “sins” of the ego to me. ³That is what Atonement is for. ⁴But until you change your mind about those whom your ego has hurt, the Atonement cannot release you. ⁵While you feel guilty your ego is in command, because only the ego can experience guilt. This need not be. Watch your mind for the temptations of the ego, and do not be deceived by it. ²It offers you nothing.” (ACIM, T-4.IV.5:1–6:2)
The Course mentions “sin” in the above paragraph and defines sin as lack of love! That’s it! I’m not sure what Jesus means when he says “to leave the ego to him” but I trust he has a good plan. And the “Atonement” means that we are called upon to Remember we are One with God….That’s it!! You don’t have to give yourself lashes with a whip or “atone” in some other way. We just need to re-member or re-attach ourselves to the memory of God…..we never left God! And if your ego has “hurt” someone tell them you are sorry- with your mind and send love or tell them in person. Why not? Don’t let the ego stop you. We SEEM to find ourselves alone in the world. Not True! He, God, is with you and will be with you Always because He is in your Mind and always will be.
“Watch your mind for the temptations of the ego, and do not be deceived by it. ²It offers you nothing. ³When you have given up this voluntary dis-spiriting, you will see how your mind can focus and rise above fatigue and heal.” (ACIM, T-4.IV.6:1-3)
DECIDE – to Watch your mind, all thoughts that judge and separate, negative and good thoughts both separate you from others and are dis-spiriting. We are no longer in SPIRIT.
The Course says this is a HABIT to be developed if you let your mind slip, and feel moody, just look and see what you have thought that God would not have thought. Forgive – let it go! You are FREE!
“One kindness a day keeps the Dr. away” Instead of an apple a day! A kindness will keep the Doctor away because when we give, we receive! Try it! I just called a Senator who was receiving hate messages from those who disagree with him and told him he is doing a great job and he is loved!
I hope the staff passes the message on but whether they do or not, I have sent the message with my heart and mind. I still have that message in my mind so even though I “gave” it; I still have it because when you give you receive!
If you are depressed, anxious and worried what could you need that kindness could not give? You need a message of hope, acceptance and appreciation so what better to give….that will also help you through the depression? When you give…..you receive and you have…. because it is in the mind. Who do you know who needs a word of kindness today? How about yourself? Make a note and paste it on your bathroom mirror!
Just like the note, you don’t need to say it out loud either. You hold it in your mind because on some level minds are shared because we are One. Send love to someone you have held a grievance about. Maybe someone you detest! In this way you release yourself from the hold you have placed on the love within, the love that you are. Maybe they insulted you or snubbed you or called you a name. So what? That is really their problem.
Those who hate are in pain. Their judgment locks them in a prison of pain and separation. The people who left their message of hate on the Senator’s voice mail did not get rid of their hate just because they “left” the message. They still carry the hate in their mind and heart. They are in fear and need love. They reject love because they are afraid of it. Send them love anyhow. Refuse to hate and sully your beautiful holy mind, which by the way cannot ever be stained.
When you find yourself upset, disgusted or hating someone STOP! Say: This is the ego’s choice not mine! I refuse to carry this judgment. The look within to see what the problem or issue is and then admit it is also in you. Would you blame yourself for this mistake? No! So don’t blame them either. If you want peace always go within and listen to the “small still voice”; the voice of the Holy Spirit; Love; mercy; Truth and Kindness.
Do yourself the kindness of forgiveness and you will be well….all the days of your life!!
A Course In Miracles Lesson 282: I will not be afraid of love today
In A Course In Miracles Lesson 151, All things are echoes of the Voice for God, paragraph 5. Jesus explains what the ego is doing in our mind.
In paragraph 4.2.”You have often been urged to refrain from judging, not because it is a right to be withheld from you. You cannot judge. You merely can believe the ego’s judgments all of which are false. It guides your senses carefully, to prove how weak you are; how helpless and afraid, how apprehensive of just punishment, how black with sin, how wretched in your guilt.”
THIS IS THE EGO’S OPINION AND IT IS NOT TRUE. DON’T BELIEVE IT!
It’s this thinking of weakness, fear, guilt and sin the ego has forced fed us and continues its task daily and moment by moment if we listen to it. And the proof of this is that we have judged others and ourselves our entire life and believed those judgments to be true. We were born with a gavel in our fat little hand, leveling judgments as if we were sitting on the “Judge’s Bench” and knew everything there was to know about something or someone. That gavel was placed in our “hands” by the ego part of our split mind when we separated from God, (or thought we did) and not knowing any better, we listened and believed its the ego thoughts were ours and true to boot. We never thought to question that maybe the stream emanating from within our mind, were not really our thoughts! We didn’t know any better. We listened to a voice that has no scruples, claims authority over us and has its own self-interest as its goal. But the fact is that we did CHOOSE the ego at the “seeming” separation. It was a mistake that never really happened, however, still we must change our mind now that we are in ego land.
Then in paragraph 5. Jesus tells us “This thing it speaks of, and would yet defend, it tells you is yourself.And you believe that this is so, with stubborn certainty. Yet underneath remains the hidden doubt that what it shows you as reality with such conviction it does not believe.” It is itself alone that it condemns. It iswithin itself it sees the guilt. It is its own despair it sees in you.” I take this to mean that the ego projects its inadequacies and condemnations onto our mind, me/you. It does not know anything really because it is unsure of itself! Kind of like a blustering Cowardly Lion, the King of the Forest in the Wizard of Oz, so unsure of himself but never let anyone know it! That’s the ego being unsure of what it is!
But we have believed it’s litany of judgements as Jesus said in paragraph 4. We have listened to thoughts of separation; sin, guilt and fear and have done the ego’s work of projecting the ego’s condemnation and despair out onto the world and onto others. Saving ourselves and getting rid of it like the ego just did with us. What the ego projected onto us; we gladly did the favor of passing it on….out onto others and the world. We are then a puppet of the ego UNTIL we decide “Enough of this Ugliness” “STOP with the Baby Business, like Ken Wapnick tells us!!” It is tragic because we separated ourselves from LOVE. Now we are trying to get back to the LOVE that has always been there.
I find this to be amazing…….all my life listening to the wrong voice and believing it, until I came across the Course In Miracles and I know I still listen to the ego because I catch myself judging….a lot!! I am responsible for what I think or what I believe from the ego point of view. I must over-ride those thoughts. Like Byron Katie asks: Is that True??? If any thought is coming from the ego it is NOT True!
So….now what! Lesson 152. 1. “No one can suffer loss unless it be his own decision. No one can grieve nor fear, nor think him sick unless these are the outcomes that he wants. No one dies without his own consent.” And in paragraph 9. “Today we practice true humility, abandoning the false pretense by which the ego seeks to prove it (our reality as God’s Son) arrogant. Only the ego can be arrogant. But truth is humble in acknowledging its mightiness its changelessness and its eternal wholeness, all encompassing. We lay aside the arrogance (of the ego) which says that we are sinners, guilty, and afraid, ashamed of what we are; and lift our hearts in true humility instead to Him Who has created us immaculate, like to Himself in power and in love.” We CHOOSE to drop the hand of the ego and accept the Truth that Jesus is leading us to.
Here is beautiful paragraph 10 in first person. “The power of decision is my own. I accept of Him that which I am, and humbly recognize (myself as) the Son of God. To recognize (myself as) God’s Son implies as well that all my self-concepts have been laid aside, and recognized as false. Their arrogance has been perceived. And in humility the radiance of God’s Son, my gentleness, my perfect sinlessness, my Father’s Love, is my right to Heaven and release from hell, is joyously accepted as my own.
Jesus is leading us away from the ego’s grip by telling us we have a CHOICE to make as a Decision Making Mind, and to stop believing the stream of lies that were fed to us. And above all STOP believing them! He asks us to acknowledge that the ego’ thoughts are false and only truth is true. And we encourage our frightened minds with this:
“The power of decision is my own. This day I will accept myself as what my Father’s Will created me to be.”
“Then will we wait in silence, giving up the ego’s self-deception as we humbly ask our Self that He reveal Himself to us. And He Who never left will come again to our awareness, grateful to restore His home to God as it was meant to be. In patience wait for Him (Holy Spirit your true thoughts) throughout the day, and invite him hourly. He will substitute the peace of God for all your frantic ego thoughts ( of worry , fear, doubt, guilt) the Truth of God for self-deceptions, and God’s Son for your illusions of yourself.”
To quote a little Monk on a New York Street to my good friend Brad who was deciding how much of a donation to give him…….” You da Boss!!”
Here is are the two lessons – play them and sit back and enjoy!
As we negotiate our lives we do wonder who we are.
We have many gifts and perhaps foibles and we wonder who we are.
We make mistakes (never call them sins) and we wonder who we are.
Are you L.G.B.T.Q or? Are you black, white, brown or? But you still wonder who am I, or what am I.
Do you know what you are?
This is what you are:
You are the Holy Son of God regardless of how you identify your body, male, female, straight, L.G.B.T.Q or your ethnicity!!! This is the Truth! Accept it because you are MORE than a body. You are Spirit first!
This is the truth regardless of what your sexual identity, ethnicity, cultural background or white, black, brown, yellow or red!
FACT: You are loved, complete, healed and whole and any uncertainty about that is self-deception.
Do not deny this reality regardless of how you self-identify, or how you see yourself or think others see you. You are a Holy Son of God regardless of what they think, how they see you or judge you and you are This over and above any other self-identification imposed upon you by yourself or others. Holy Son of God comes first!
And regardless of how others self-identify they too are a Holy Son of God, the same as you. Love them because as you judge them, you judge yourself. As you Love them; you love yourself.
And…..this is important: As you hate them you hate yourself.
You are God’s Son in whom he is well pleased! You are his Son regardless of what your doubting split mind may tell you. The ego part of your mind is what has doubts and it is insidious and not your friend. Do not listen to it. Tell it what you are instead.
See A Course In Miracles Workbook Lesson 139. I will accept Atonement for myself.
Click on the “Listen” button and close your eyes, lean back and relax.
Tip: Atonement is defined in the Course as: The separation from God that never occurred. This is different from what some religions teach: that you have done something wrong. You have done nothing wrong but you need to remember you are as God created you; ONE with GOD; have always been and will always be and so is everyone else.
Painting Title: Take Jesus off the Cross – prints & cards avail
And Always Remember above all else and say: I AM LOVED
It is hard to believe that it us up to us to “save” ourselves. What??? HELP!!! I want someone else to do it. To fix me, love me, tell me I’m loveable, accepted, cared for, protected from all harm, and who can make me feel secure in the knowledge that all….IS WELL.
Yes, ask for HELP from professionals, and they can and will guide, but they still can’t do it for us…….we do it! We are responsible. You are responsible.
We are unaware most of the time that we have a split mind. But if you are suffering it is probably because of your thinking! Thoughts of judgment, worry, concerns, stress fear, tell you that you are listening to the wrong mind, i.e. the ego. It is your holy mind within that you need to access and listen to that says All Is WELL.
Ask for HELP to think the quite thoughts. The holy part of your mind is the Holy Spirit. It won’t attack with….”you should know better.” That is the false, ego mind. The memory of love aka God comes to the quiet mind. On a scale from 1 to 10%, with 10% being the greatest….how much attention do you give to quieting your mind? Maybe 2% or 5% or none?
This is why we are our saviors. We save ourselves when we access our right holy mind, the Holy Spirit and turn our daily tasks and thoughts over. The book “A Course In Miracles” says “ask the Holy Spirit” for help. The Holy Spirit is a gift from God or the door to our right mind. That is where peace and comfort can be accessed. It is not in the world, going to the movies, shopping, etc.
For example, I recently had to do something I was dreading. When I noticed the ego thoughts running in my mind, I made the decision to change my mind. I called upon the “Holy Spirit” and said I want to see this differently. What came to me was: “take love with you and carry it like a “hostess gift and choose to see everyone and all circumstances through the eyes of non-judgment and peace.” It was an easy afternoon using the gift. You have it too.
If you are not familiar with the Course the idea of a “Holy Spirit” may seem strange but….watch your mind and if you see the dualistic split between, good/bad, love/hate, friend/foe, misery/peace then you are noticing the split. Just watch how you are feeling, what’s going on in your mind. Do you like it? You are a “Decision Maker” i.e. the boss! It is up to you to lead the way and not follow the ego’s thoughts that lead to nowhere!
But you have to watch your thoughts. You must be vigilant for those little thoughts of unease and if you follow them, they will become bigger. Important: don’t judge them or make it a big deal but just tell yourself you are choosing another way.
In A Course In Miracles, Chapter 27. Section VIII, The Hero of the Dream, paragraph 10. (Text page 587) “The secret of salvation is but this: That you are doing this unto yourself.”
All judgment makes us miserable. Watch the parade of thoughts, wave, and let them go and ask for another way to see everything! Ask for HELP!
This month we all set our clocks ahead one hour for daylight savings time. I love it. More Light!!! We need more light in our lives. One way to have more light in our lives is to let go of the darkness, daily. Actually moment by moment.
If you cannot access peace you may be on “rewind” and replaying hurtful events from the past. Examine and see if something is bothering you from an hour ago, yesterday or last week?
Are you happy being stuck on automatic thinking about an event, old or new? Are you replaying blame, pain and guilt? Was it their fault or yours? If it was your fault you feel guilty. If it was theirs, you feel victimized. Neither are very happy making!
Why is your mind doing the replaying? Ask Yourself: Do I want peace and joy rather than guilt or victimhood? If the answer is Peace and Joy, then STOP acknowledging or listening to the replay.
The master of replay is…..the ego. The ego is the part of the mind that always brings up fear, negativity, self doubt, envy, grievances, etc. It’s purpose is to keep you from realizing your true innocent Self and to keep you from peace.
You have a Beautiful Holy Mind, a Decider! START to “overlook” the disturbing limiting negative thoughts and instead say: “I choose to look at this another way for the sake of my own peace.” You do not have to believe your thoughts. They are coming from the insane ego part of your mind. Listen to Holy Spirit, the guide that was given all of us at the point when we separated from God. He was placed there as the alternative to the ego. You can ask for help and choose which part of your mind you will listen to; the voice for peace or the voice for love.
If you are holding a grievance against someone….it is held in your MIND! You are trapped in the grievance with them. Are you happy? Tell them in your mind and include yourself:
“My brother/sister/: peace and joy I offer you, That I may have God’s peace and joy as mine.”
See A Course In Miracles Workbook Lesson 105.
We don’t realize that if we hold a grudge or a judgment against someone, that we are in effect, denying peace to our Self. If you hold it in your mind, you are victimizing yourself, causing your own suffering! Amazing isn’t it??
Do you think your brother is suffering? We don’t know but we know you are. Would you say to that brother?
“My brother/sister/myself: misery and suffering I offer you, That I may have misery and suffering as well.
You have a powerful and Holy Mind at your disposal. The Holy Sprit will take your hand and guide you as you look at any and all thoughts. This looking is also called forgiveness.
This is from A Course In Miracles, 1. What Is Forgiveness: p.4. Forgiveness, on the other hand, is still, and quietly does nothing. It offends no aspect of reality, nor seeks to twist it to appearances it likes. It merely looks, and waits, and judges not. He who would not forgive must judge, for he must justify his failure to forgive. But he who would forgive himself must learn to welcome truth exactly as it is.
Accept that peace and joy is your inheritance and that you are worth it. Spring FORWARD into PEACE; into LIGHT!!
After listening to a wonderful youtube presentation by Tim Wise and Lyn Corona, (see the link below) I realize how addicting the ego voice is. We are in “ego mode” when we search for and MUST find something or someone to blame. We want to blame the pain and fear on something! The source of inner pain and even bodily pain is from listening to the ego…believing this faulty thinking is right and then choosing to be in ego mode. All depression, anxiety, worries and guilt are caused by believing the ego.
We are all addicted to something, alcohol, sex, TV, News, gambling, food, air, gossip, but everyone is addicted to one thing: the inner voice we hear in our minds: the ego. The false voice. We also ALL have an alternative however.
Right now we have the coronavirus circling the world. Who are we going to blame? Some foreign people, the military, all the Politian’s? It is the ego part of our mind doing the blaming and we believe it because we want to! We need to blame and project onto someone so we can feel better.
The ego is attracted to pain because it means the body is REAL, the world is REAL and we are important. It keeps us trapped in the dream of being a body in the illusion. We are a puppet of the ego when that happens.
When we decide we are tired of this blame game because of the pain it causes, we look within and see, according to the Course that our only problem is the separation we feel from God. That is impossible. We cannot be separate from God because we are In God at this very moment, but we don’t think we are.
If we choose blame, we are continuing the separation from God because that is what we did to Him when we chose the ego. Yes, the “tiny mad idea” in the Course tells us we chose the ego to be separate from God. If we blame ourselves or feel guilty from separating from God we are still listening to the ego mode and we are in the blame game.
The solution: We take a deep breath, step aside from the ego in your mind, take the hand of Jesus – the Holy Spirit that connects us to God and say: “I am as God Created Me, help me see this differently.” See A Course In Miracles, Workbook Lesson 110.
We insist on finding a “bad guy” to blame because we don’t want to take responsibility for the decision to separate from God. We do it every time we blame someone and make them the guilty one. We do unto them, what we did unto God. But we also do it to ourselves.
You are NOT separate from God because that is impossible. But in this dream we “believe” we are. To get out of the dream of pain ask Jesus:
“I am stuck, take my hand, help me see the way you do. Help me let go of this judgment and blame I place on ______ as I let go of my projections, believing the ego’s lies that hurt me.”
The tiny mad idea that we can be separate from God is just that…..a mad idea! An idea is not real. You are not a puppet. You are a Mind, an innocent Son of God with the power in you to follow the loving kindness in your heart, holding the hand of Love and going home to Heaven where you really are and have always been.
Here is the YouTube video with Tim Wise, Lyn Corona and others from the School for A Course in Miracles, discussing the Corona Virus:
Have you noticed that guilt just doesn’t go away? You observe it but it creeps back again and again and you continue to deny it and let it go but there it is, back again. “I thought I forgave that.” Guilt is the leaky faucet. You think you’ve turned it off but it drips, drips in the background of your thoughts. Where is it coming from? It seeps under the surface like an oil slick on a beautiful beach. Guilt is the energizer bunny with an eternal battery that never runs down and in fact continues to be energized until you look at it with the love, your inheritance, in your mind.
ACIM Workbook Lesson 4. These thoughts do no mean anything.
We believe the thoughts that run through our mind and 99.999% come from the ego (the false self) and that is why they don’t mean anything. But we believe these thoughts. The ego’s job is to keep you from Love and in a state of constant guilt. It feeds guilty thoughts at every opportunity and never wants you to turn against it. We have a split mind. You choose which split, which side to listen to and believe. We can choose between the ego’s ranting and judgments or choose to listen to the voice of peace within (the right mind) the quiet voice of the Holy Spirit that is always available.
Judgment is the origin of all guilt. Our first judgment was a selfish one according to A Course In Miracles; we separated from God at the moment of the “Big Bang” in choosing the ego. It turns out that was a “mistake” (really never happened) because when we chose the ego, we threw God away. But…..it never happened because it is not possible to separate from the God; the God written about in A Course In Miracles that is.
We believe the ego and think we have separated and that is at the crux of our pain and anger. We blame God for the separation instead of ourselves. We made up a false “god”, a punishing, warring, petty vindictive god who angrily threw Adam and Eve out of the garden. Ask yourself: Would a loving God do that? The ego set itself on the ‘god’ throne and we listen to it and obey it. Guilt was born. We are bereft, thinking we threw away our innocence and will never get it back. We either accuse and blame ourselves or project blame onto others, i.e. those guilty and sinful ones. The ego keeps rubbing the guilt wound with self-doubt, blame, selfishness and shame.
Guilt is insatiable. You are its hostage until you decide to be Host to God instead. We need loving help in looking at it. The Course tells us to hold the hand of love that comes from your right mind i.e. Jesus or the Holy Spirit and say “Please look at this guilty thought with me because I want to see it differently.” Visualize a tight grip on a warm hand. When we hold love’s hand and listen, a thought of understanding will come. Maybe tears will come but those tears will dissolve the “blocks to the awareness of love’s presence” that the introduction to the Course describes. Believe and trust that forgiveness will come. We need to forgive ourselves for the separation from God……which never happened because it is IMPOSSIBLE! The thought of Truth will be gentle and embracing.
When a guilty through crosses your mind, say: “This thought does not mean anything. The past is over; I have no need of this. I am One with God.” This is a critical conscious decision; a statement of choice that you will no longer listen or believe the ego. You are a “Decider”, a Holy Son of God and you have the power to no longer let the ego abuse you. You are Host to God and not hostage to the ego.
If you haven’t started them, I recommend the Course In Miracles Workbook lessons. The first lessons deal with letting the past go; focusing on the thoughts that bring pain and realizing they are not of God. There is a lesson for each day and the introduction to the workbook will help you begin.
It is a wonderful adventure. Just do a lesson each day and if you don’t understand it – keep going – don’t let the ego sabotage you. If you don’t understand a lesson, just keep going because the “light” will dawn eventually.
The Love within you will defeat guilt. It is a power within that is your natural inheritance. Accept God’s peace and joy as yours. Your salvation is up to you.