If you are contemplating suicide it is because you are replaying hurtful events in your mind.
We do not find peace by remembering and replaying hurtful events because we are stuck on automatic! Are you happy being stuck in a belief? Even if it WAS your fault you may think you are “right.” Does being right make you happy? Even if it was your fault you think you are wrong and suffering guilt! Are you happy being guilty? Or, even if it WAS NOT your fault, remembering and replaying the past still does not make you happy! Ask Yourself: Do I want peace and joy rather than guilt and grievances?
If the answer is YES, then decided to STOP replaying the past!
It is up to you……yes YOU!
You can choose to look at it another way.
Say: “OK – I’ll look at this another way for the sake of my own peace.”
Begin to think of the people involved (or the situation) and realize that you are denying peace and joy that is their right (under the equal laws of God.) You have ALSO denied peace and joy to yourself.
Think of that: If you hold a grievance against someone….it is held in your MIND! You are trapped in the grievance with them. Are you happy?
Think of the people involved a little while and tell them in your mind:
My brother/sister/myself: peace and joy I offer you,
That I may have God’s peace and joy as mine.” (Include yourself in this prayer.)
We don’t think that just because we have denied peace and joy someone else that we are in effect really denying peace to our Self. If you hold hate or a grudge in your mind, you are the one HOLDING the hate and the grudge so you are the effect of your own suffering!
Do you think your brother is suffering? We don’t know but we know you are.
Would you rather say to that brother?
My brother/sister/myself: misery and suffering I offer you
That I may have the ego’s misery and suffering as mine.
Which version do you choose? If the word God bothers you, take it out. God won’t care. That mystery of love is that it never condemns. It doesn’t know how to. Make a copy of the pledge and paste it around the house. Take yourself on as a student and train yourself to accept that peace and joy is your inheritance and that you are worth it.
* This quote comes from the spiritual book, A Course In Miracles, Workbook lesson 105 God’s Peace and Joy are Mine. Visit www.acim.org go The Workbook lessons and then click the lesson selector. You can also click “hear” and listen to the entire lesson and close your eyes. Choose peace!
Hint: When you give you also receive!